They're MINE!

And I LOVE them!

Anxiety

I've been an anxious type all my life and sometimes my anxiety gets pretty yucky. I used to have a prescription that I could take every now and then when I was feeling particularly anxiety ridden... but for the past 3 years I've been pregnant or breastfeeding (or both!)and haven't been able to take anything.
Yeah, I know. Diet, exercise, vitamins... blah, blah, blah... Those things really never helped me. For the past 3 days or so I've been feeling it. I know I'm excited about Alex leaving the army, but maybe it's causing a little anxiety too? I can't quite pin point it. But I also can't think of anything else that could be causing it. My chest just feels tight and I have a bit of a butterfly feeling in my stomach.
I KNOW that caffeine doesn't help, and I always drink a morning latte. I'm quitting coffee tomorrow. Too late today. Already drank some. I do hope that will help.

Today is our last day......

as a military family!!!!!!
I'm just happy. Alex is handling it. Tomorrow we start the next chapter. It's exciting. I've never been in a situation where I didn't know exactly what would happen before. There is a plan in place.... BUT we can change our minds if we want to. And we can change them however many times we want to. The military doesn't own my husband anymore! We're going to make our own rules from tomorrow on!

Bitchy Know-it-alls...

I'm a magnet for them. I'm nice. I'm polite. I'm intelligent. So why do I attract these people? I don't talk out of my ass (usually). If I don't know something... I say so. If I do know something and can be helpful, I nicely try and help.
I don't get why some people are always argumentative. And passive aggressive.
Whatever.

Can't. Stop. EATING.

I'm just ravenous ALL the time! Like now... it's past midnight. I should be sleeping but I was just SO hungry I snarfed down a cheddarwurst. With spicy brown mustard. That was good. Just a hotdog and a fork and some mustard. Real good. The scary part..... I really, and I mean REALLY, want another. But I will not succumb. I'm stronger than Johnsonville. I think. I hope.
Last night, I woke up at 2:30 am because Alex and I fell asleep on the couch. I had a bowl of honey nut cheerios before getting into bed. Why? I felt like I hadn't eaten in a week.
I hope this stops soon! My ass can't take any more weight. ;)

Head over heels!

It's so amazing.... the feelings I get just thinking about my husband and my girls. I never imagined life could be so wonderful. Perfect even.

Alex is finally getting out of the army. 2 weeks and counting. 7 deployments, countless trips to the field, long hours and frustration. We're opening a new chapter. It's scary and exciting.
He loves his job. Being an Army Ranger meant the world to him. He did an amazing job at home and during combat. He was awarded a bronze star, fought long and hard, helped many people and now it's time. I can see his longing for it already, but I can see his excitement about building something new. This man.... I can't say enough. He is brilliant. He is strong. He is loving. He is proud. I love him. And the best part.... I KNOW he loves us more than anything. It's nice to have absolutely no doubts. He is my air.

He's taking 2 months off before starting his new job. During these months, we will travel, relax, plan and dream. The new job is another can of worms to be opened when the time actually comes.... But until then, I can relish in the fact that I'll have my husband all to myself for a couple of months.