I AM...

THAT much of a nerd, that I photograph everything I sew to share online. As I was arranging diapers on the floor for their photo sessions, I said it out loud to Olivia.....

"OMG, I'm a nerd!! Who does this??" And Olivia replied "You're JUST now figuring that out??"




Oh, but aren't they squishy looking?? And aren't they pretty??

Sofia's birdiful hat!!

I decided to let my little Sofia help me by dyeing corriedale top with wiltons. She picked the colors, helped me paint and squirt and roll the roving into saran wrap. I put it in the microwave to some beautiful results! In return for her wonderful favor, I spun it *just for her* and made her a hat!!!

She says it's birdiful!! That makes it so worth the frustrations!! And I absolutely had a blast watching it come out. This is my first time with color, and my first time plying. I'm so hooked. now I wish I had more energy to do more... I am way pregnant and tired and am feeling very lazy lately!

Carmen is 2!!

My sweet Carmen is 2 years old today. Time sure flies. It seems like yesterday she was just a tiny little thing... and now she's 2.

From this:


To this:

Oh, puke.

Today while I was making lunch, Sofia decided to somehow open and dump a can of wet cat food on the couch. It's microfiber, so it's not stained. I cleaned it up very well, then febreezed it.... but it still stinks like shitty gross cat food.

To top that off.... I dyed some roving today. So my house smells like catfood and wet wool.

So not a good thing when you're pregnant.


The good news.... I'm still adorable.... in a chubby pregnant glowing sort of way. ;)

Sewing clothes for the girls!!

Never thought I'd make matching outfits for the girls.... But I did. and I LOVELOVELOVE them!!!
Does that make me a nerdy mom?

For Sofia...


And for Carmen...

Baby names, baby names.... where are you??

I'm lost this time. Alex is shooting down names left and right. Yet.... he doesn't have a single suggestion. Nice, right?
We never really decide until we see the baby anyway, but we do go in with ideas. This time, we have no ideas. Well, I do. But they've been shot down.
Audrey, Isabel, Estella, Evelyn, Imogen, Scarlett, Oh, I need to go through the baby name books again. I have a zillion names highlighted in my color from our last pregnancy. I think alex may have highlighted about 2 in his color.
It'll remain a mystery for a while longer.

Ta-DA!!!

I made Sofia some socks! Not bad for a sock noob, huh??

My second yarn!

I think it could have been worse. I am taking a class on Wednesday. I'm really excited about it.

Adventures in *Not Really* Spinning

She's together.... I still haven't came up with a name. How about &^$^*%$^*%)*&^&^$% ?? Beautiful, though...



Look how happy and naive I am.... (was)



I'm not sure exactly what I was thinking.... well, actually I was thinking that I'd sit down and spin a nice perfect yarn my first time and then knit a hat. All in a night..... so I know WHAT I was thinking, but I'm now wondering WHY I was thinking that.

Ummmmm.... spinning yarn is NOT easy. It did not come naturally to me. I came out with some yarn, if you can call it yarn. Probably not technically yarn. More like "horrid unspunsuperspun". It was either super kinky and overtwisted, or not twisted at all and kind of falling apart.

OK, yes, there were random areas throughout that looked ok. Good, even. But mostly not. And when you're doing something that you don't know how to do... something you suck at... it isn't much fun.

Please tell me it gets easier!! Tell me that I won't suck at this forever! Tell me I won't suck for a whole month until the LYS offers the beginners spinning class!! Because i do not want to suck for a month!

You can't even really see the yarn in the picture, but I've got to show it anyway. There's this on the bobbin and a pile of discarded kinky fuzzy stringy yarny stuff on my dining room floor.

LOOK who is coming to live with me!!!

It's an ashford traveller spinning wheel. I need to name her, don't I?

I looked at wheels the other day at the local LYS and narrowed it down to 2... I liked them equally in most aspects, but this one was MUCH prettier.

I'm sooooooo excited! SO excited. I can't wait to spin some yarn!

Can I just swoon over Alex??

Do you ever wonder how it's possible to love a man SO much that it can literally make your heart beat faster? I LOVE this man! I love everything about him. I love how he loves me. I LOVE him!

I have so many reasons. More reasons than I could ever list.

But today, he told me he was proud of me for knitting!! He's proud when I do little things... like teaching myself to knit. He's proud when I sell a diaper, or when someone comments on something that I made. Honestly, with the way he gets, you'd think HE made it/did it himself. He loves me like that.

I am so incredibly lucky!

I did it!!!!! I DID IT!!!

I taught myself to KNIT!
My first project was a scarf.... it turned out better than I thought it would.


Scarves aren't fun knitting. It's repetitive. And kind of boring. But I think it's a learning to knit right of passage. I'll do another when I try out cables. Cabled scarves are pretty.

With the scarf finished, and me hooked already, I had to dive right into something else. Something that would give me pretty quick gratification, meaning something small. Small..... what could I make that was small? Why, a newborn baby kimono sweater, that's what!! Knitted with merino wool yarn hand dyed by yours truly. It still needs ties but I can't find the only crochet hook I own, so that will have to wait.


I am pretty sure that a hoodie sweater for my Sofia in heathered pink wool is next. :)

I'm dyeing yarn!!

I don't know how to knit... YET. But I had to dye some yarn to knit up before I could learn. Makes sense, right?? Well... I could have bought already dyed yarn. But alot of the reson that I wanted to learn to knit is so that I could dye the yarn my very own self. And I love it already. LOVE it.

Is it possible to have too many hobbies? If it is, I am probably on the brink.

I am pretty impressed with myself. The first one... the pink and turquoise is hand painted. It was an adventure to get there, but I got there. I though it was ugly before I would it into a skein (is that actaully a skein?) but I found I quite like it!
The second is space dyed on the stovetop. It's pretty bright. But it will make a nice wool scarf for a little girl!

FOUR girls.

That's how many we'll have come January.
It's definitely not what I expected the ultrasound tech to tell me. I mean, seriously. What are the chances of 4 girls in a row? For me.... apparently very good. I wouldn't have thought so. But here we are. We'll have another little baby girls!! A baby sister for 3 girls and another daughter for us!
I am happy. I can't wait to meet her. I'd love to figure out a few names, but my man muffin isn't being helpful. He keeps throwing out boys names. Maybe next time, honey.

Unmotivated.

I have so much on my list.
Yet... I can't seem to get anything done. I'm just feeling so tired, and a bit sick all the time. I get little spurts of energy, but all those are good for are the normal daily chores that must be done anyway.... none of the extras on my list.

I'm not sure, but I *think* I may have felt the baby move a couple of times. I mean... it could have been digestion, but I swear it felt like baby!! And if anyone else would have told me that they felt a baby move around 11 weeks, I'd say "Pfft, you're crazy and imagining things." which I very well could be. But it feels real. And if I feel my belly, I can feel my uterus (TMI?) and that's exactly where the feelings are coming from. I'm probably crazy. But it sure is a nice thought.

I heard the heartbeat on a doppler!!

What a wonderful sound. The bean is thriving in there. I'm pleased. :)
I'm 8 weeks 2 days, still nauseated, so tired.....

I really hope alex gets his son. I'll be happy either way, but a boy would be such happy news for Alex. He LOVES the girls. But men want sons. Sons who will grow up to be just like their daddies. And if we have a son who grows up to be like his daddy, he'll make some woman very happy some day. And I'll be a very proud mama. Maybe my husband will get his Christian Alexander this time?

Did I mention that my husband is the most amazing man in the world? Now, I know you are all thinking... "No... sorry. MY husband is the most amazing." But I'll argue that. Mine is. He's wonderful. First of all.... he's HOT. Second of all, he's sensitive (honey... don't worry. I mean sensitive in a manly way) He's never mean. He writes amazing love letters. He spoils me. He does anything he can to make us happy. There's more. Much more.

In our wedding album, we have a letter printed, written by Victor Hugo, that was perfect for us:

My dearest,
When two souls, which have sought each other for,
however long in the throng, have finally found each other ...a union, fiery and pure as they themselves are... begins on earth and continues forever in heaven.

This union is love, true love, ... a religion, which deifies the loved one, whose life comes from devotion and passion, and for which the greatest sacrifices are the sweetest delights.

This is the love which you inspire in me... Your soul is made to love with the purity and passion of angels; but perhaps it can only love another angel, in which case I must tremble with apprehension.

Yours forever,
Victor Hugo (1821)

A death, a positive pregnancy test (or 20) and more....

It's been a while, hasn't it?
I'm going to try and update more often.

Here's what's going on with our family at the moment. It's not good. It's really sad.
My brothers perfect little 3 week old baby passed away in his sleep on May 6th. It was ruled a SIDS death. I wish there was a reason, something to blame but there isn't. He was beautiful and perfect and will live in our hearts forever. It has been a very hard time for all of us. I'm not sure why things happen sometimes. Maybe he was too perfect for earth. I'd like to think healing can start now... but it doesn't feel like it has.

I'm pregnant again. Yes... number 4!
I'm 5 weeks, 1 day today. I try and keep my hopes low for the first 12 weeks, but it's hard to not get excited even though I know it's super early and anything can still happen. I'm a bit of a pessimist. Always have been. I don't like to admit it. But there you go. I can't rest assured until a baby pops out. Even then.... another set of worries.

The girls are so big now. I need to get more pictures taken. They are just beautiful!!
Alex is as wonderful as ever. He's overseas. I miss him so much. Lucky him.... he gets to miss morning sickness. Lucky me.... I get to take care of 3 girls and a Great Dane who is impossible to train with the amount of free time I have, all while trying not to throw up. it should be an adventure.
Alex will pay.
Not sure how. But he will.

I have been taking a break from sewing Fattycakes diapers with all the craziness of life lately. I hope to be back to sewing soon. Just a few more things I need to get done.

I'm a blogging slacker!

We had to get a new computer, and I couldn't remember how to log in to my posting page. Obviously, I found it.
I'm up way past my bedtime...
I'm usually up way past my bedtime. It's a nasty habit. I get some *me* time after the girls are in bed and I take it a little too far. Tomorrow is a snow day so we will get to sleep in a little later, but I know I'll still have to drag my butt out of bed.
The girls are sometimes known to sleep LATE. 10am occasionally. I hope tomorrow is one of those days. Usually those days are mornings I get up early because I actually DID go to bed on time. They get up early when I stay up late. How do kids know? Because I really think they do it on purpose. In fact, I KNOW they do. Because my children are lovely like that. ;)